Title:
Liberty
Part: (1/1)
Rating: pg
Author: Jenn
Feedback: rozzy285@yahoo.com
Disclaimer: Not mine..as per usual. Song is
"Liberty", by Vertical Horizon.
Me and my big mouth.
Yeah, that's what got me into this mess, I'm sure of it.
What was I thinking, believing Nasedo for all those
years, when he was feeding me all that crap about
destiny? I should of known better. I should of known that
none of it was true. But I fell for it anyway...and when
I rolled into town with Nasedo and all those lies, I
began to repeat them. Stupid, I know..but that was six
years ago. At first, they didn't believe me. They didn't
want to and now that I'm looking back, I understand why.
Believing in some
pre-destined plan is a mistake, because inevitably,
something will come along when you're trying to make it
work, and throw everything off-course. That's what I did
to Max and that's what I did to myself. Before I came
along, Max was living his life...what he thought was his
"pre-destined plan" with Liz Parker...then I
showed up with my lies about "true" destiny,
thus throwing his real one, off of it's spinning axis.
That's why, in the long run, I didn't blame him for being
angry with me. As for Michael and Isabel, they didn't
like the idea of having to fulfill some greater plan..but
they were at least..willing.
Speaking of Michael and
Isabel...they're together now. They've been together for
a while and I hate it. But it's all my fault and I
suppose I'm finally getting what's been coming to me. And
I guess that I should of told them all, what a bunch of
crap this destiny stuff really was, when I actually
started to feel that way about it.
~~~
I don't want to go into
too much detail, but there's certain stuff that needs to
be said, to make this less confusing.
we met as two total
strangers
as many lovers do
but who could have ever seen the danger
I didn't know I'd fall in love with you
Before they knew
anything about me, Isabel was the first one to talk. She
took me under her wing, so-to-speak. And even after,
regardless of the rough times..we still had some fun
ones. We got really close and I started to care about her
alot. But then that Congresswoman came along. That was it
for us. After that, I knew that there was something more
than a mere riendship-slash-alien bond between us. We had
our moments. Secret trysts, I guess you could say.
Teenagers tend to get curious..and experimental.
But....experimental or not, there was something
undeniable there.
you are this lonely
picker's daydream
like a wish that's wishing to come true
so Liberty just know I'm waiting
to share this love song with you
Because of me, no doubt,
Max had begun to take the role of "king" far
too seriously. Even he began to think, and say, that we
should be following our destinies. By then, though..I was
through with all that. I didn't want it and I knew he
didn't either. I could see that Isabel and Michael didn't
want it, but were going along with it, just because he
said. When she was with me..when we would kiss and test
each others limits...I knew that it was me she really
wanted to be with, but Max's voice was alot more
persistant than my own.
but do you think
about me when you're lying in his bed
won't you take the time to explain
do you ever think you'd rather be with me instead
or do you only think about me when it rains
But now...it's him she's
with. And I know she thinks about me. Isabel taught me
how to dreamwalk. In some weird way, I think she was
doing it as her way of telling me that it was the only
way we could be together. After she chose him...it took
me a long time before I actually got up the nerver to try
it. A couple years actually. When I did, I didn't like
what I saw. At first, she was always alone...and then he
would show up and she'd cry in his arms. It should of
been me.
we shared some
special nights together
we said we'd watch the morning rises
but when the sun was all around us
wasn't nothing I hadn't seen in your eyes
There were other times
when I would find her with a dream version of myself.
Whether she knew the difference or not, I'll never know.
But she's smart...so i'm guessing she did. But then it
would slowly fade to dark then light, and I would watch
as she let me slip away. And I would be left there to
watch her sit alone and smile. A secret smile that only I
had seen before. I knew then that she was going to make
it.
i try so hard to keep
it hidden
but i am hurting deep inside
for every time i've seen you smile
there are two times that I have cried
And now it seems so long
ago, since I quit visiting her in those dreams. So here I
am now, going on twenty-four....still unable to let go,
to move on. We don't talk any more, that's what makes it
harder..but I still have my dreams and though I may be
alone in them..sometimes I can sense that Isabel is
there. I never see her..but I know she's there.
but do you think
about me when you're lying in his bed
won't you take the time to explain
do you ever think you'd rather be with me instead
or do you only think about me when it rains
I know that she must
think about me...but it hurts knowing that I can't be
near her. It hurts to know that I can't see her..yet she
stays, while i'm asleep, to watch me cry in my dreams.
now and forever my
love will be the same
i will be waiting underneath the pouring rain
But still, every night,
she watches me in my dreams. maybe it's so she doesn't
start to forget what we once had. What we could of had.
What, I know, she still wants. So every night, I'm always
there...always..waiting.
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